I deleted all but 4 entries today. I think this is probably a sign of me moving toward a new start on diaryland under a new name or just a different focus under this name.

Reading through some of those old entries made me feel embarassed about the way I thought then. How I spent so much time on here talking out my issues but never really dealing with anything at the time. The more I wrote in here, the more other people encouraged me to 'write out' my issues when really I wasn't ever dealing with them, only finding other people who were going through the same things. Finding these people allowed me to continue the pattern.

I guess that's why I stopped writing in here so much. As I grew out of it, I saw too many people still engulfed in it and I felt sorry for them. People dealing with the same emotions they had 2 years ago. I know I'm not the same person I was 2 years ago and those who are still dwelling on the same sad relationships made me feel sad for them.

So I purged. I've grown up and dealt with things, past relationships and I felt no reason to hold onto the entries anymore.