I've been purging a lot of things lately whether it's diary/blog entries or papers and memorabilia in the apartmet. I'm a pack rat and I realized I was saving things for the wrong reasons. Instead of saving them because I wanted to be reminded of certain memories, I was keeping them in hopes of staying in that time and place. I've been holding myself back in a lot of ways from moving forward in a number of areas in my life.

It's only been in the past little while that I realized I needed to finally let go of the past or of memories and just move forward into the unknown.

I talked with a friend last night about letting go of control and just rolling with the punches. For too long I tried to plan every aspect of my life and when things fell through, I fell apart. The past couple of years I worked harder at trusting my abilities and myself. I'm still not 100% trusting, but I have realized that I can have a guideline, but I couldn't have a concrete path. And surprisingly, it has been working out. I don't stress nearly as much as before and I just realize that things will all fall into place, even if it doesn't feel like it at the time.

And so, I've been purging old thoughts, old memories, old behaviours to make room for the future and whatever it holds for me.