welcome 2005
So many people are recapping the year in entries today. Instead, I thought I'd drop into my diary and actually leave an entry - something I haven't done for well over 2 months.
2004 wasn't a bad year. It wasn't a good year. It was just a year in my life. Nothing overly significant happened to alter my life in any way. No major highs or lows. I think I should be lucky as other years have been filled with chaos and sadness and happiness and calm all rolled into one.
I think because 2004 was so calm, I was able to really process things in my head. I dealt with past relationships with the past participants and just within my head. I let go of a lot of the things I felt held me back in my personal relationships. I think I learned most of all to be more comfortable with who I am and what I think. This acceptance carries into other aspects of my life, of course. Professionally, I think I'm on a good track. I've stayed put in one place for longer than I have in a long time and it's comforting to be comfortable. God, does that make any sense?
I am not a huge fan of resolutions. There's no reason I can't change things throughout the year. The progression of a date doesn't make me any more inclined to set unrealistic goals for myself.
I'm going to continue learning to love myself and be comfortable with who I am. I figure eventually a great man will come along who wants to be comfortable with me and love me too. Work will eventually become more permanent, as long as I keep doing a great job.
2005 isn't bringing me major changes. I think 2005 is bringing me my grown up years.