Vday
I didn't comment on Valentines Day. I've never been one to shy away from a little romance and I think Vday is great! Sure it's commercialized, but everything is (maybe that's not a good attitude to have, but it's mine and I accept it today *wink*). I've spent the last few Vdays alone. Well, not alone as I've spent them working with people I call friends, but alone in that there wasn't a nice gentleman in my life to send flowers or whisper I love yous into my ear.
For the most part this year, I felt great! I was in good spirits and wasn't thinking much about being single. As the day progressed and the coupled office mates huddled off to a corner to share Vday stories, I stuck to my office and got my work done, wishing a nice fellow I've been talking to might drop me a line. He didn't until a few days later and I realized my expectations (hopes) were unfair for someone I barely know.
Finally, after many years of trying to sort myself out, I am ready...truly ready to share my life with someone. And I want to. I would like a relationship. I know that I can force it. I need to just keep doing my thing and everything will work out....but every once and a while I need to throw it out there to the universe so she knows I'm still interested.