better space
"it sounds like you have some confidence issues. i don't know where they are coming from; i've been reading your diary for a couple years and you ALWAYS come across as organized and thoughtful in a way i wouldn't think you'd have to worry about it. BUT, that's easy for me to say, huh... all i can say is don't be afraid to discuss the things you know and/or care about, and little by little, you'll realize you have a lot to offer. hang in there! :) "
Thanks for the note
I was definitely in a strange head space yesterday when I wrote that entry. I am organized, thoughtful and have confidence. I generalized where I shoudn't have.
Yesterday, I was pulled into a meeting with a coworker who has never looked at me as someone with valid opinions. It's been frustrating to work with him because I do respect his creativity and ability to manage what he's got to do, knowing his plate is overflowing. I try to give my feedback, but it's really hard to gain his acknowledgement that my points are valid. Maybe he does think they are and appreciates my feedback, but he's not a verbal guy and doesn't let me know. I'm not sure.
What I am sure of is that I was feeling rejected (grin) and let that small bit of rejection spill into every other aspect of my life. Obviously, not a rational thing to do.
I feel good that I got it out there...even if it was only to my handful (if that) of readers. I have another meeting with him tomorrow and I'm going to go into it trying to forget how I felt yesterday. I have valid opinions and I'm going to share them.